Alcohol = Aphrodisiac

Just like the horrible incident a few nights back (check out one of my previous entries), a lot of those nights I'd rather forget had me under the influence of alcohol. And okay, based on the title of this entry--- yes, those incidents are indeed, er--- sexual.

Take my first sexual experience--- if you'd consider a person's first oral sex experience his first sexual experience. It was the first time I got a taste of alcohol. I was drinking with people (ok...relatives) several years older than me, because I guess they thought it would be fun to get a kid drunk. I was 12 at that time, almost 13. So i guess you'd consider me a teen. With just a small amount, I got really drunk. I went to the bathroom to pee, door was unlocked so I went inside, turns out someone was already inside, sitting on the toilet peeing. When she stood up I kneeled on the floor and did the unthinkable. I guess she was drunk also, because she just let me do that sloppy unthinkable. What a way to end my baptism to alcohol. Woo-hoo. The act wasn't so bad actually. It's who I did it to, that's what makes me shiver. It's funny when I saw her after many years, the first thing she told me was I was looking better and better. um, ok... not in the mood to reminisce? hehe.

Now let me tell you abou my first real sexual experience. I was drunk again, and then this relatively hot girl (or maybe she just looked hot because of the alcohol) approached me, with an odd proposition. TO be in a THREESOME. I got excited immediately. Then she continued---- threesome with my boyfriend--- err. um, no thanks! I can't imagine myself in bed with another guy! But she was very persistent, that she really liked me, she assured me the guy is straight, they just wanted to experiment because they're both drunk, willing to explore, looking for ways to spice up the relationship, yadda yadda yadda.... And i was drunk, so I had less inhibitions, plus the thought of being in a threesome with another guy didn't look so bad after a while. And he really did look straight. And I looked better, so I thought I could do more with the girl. hehe. And besides, That's the scenario in a lot of porn films, 2 guys and a girl... hey, it's like being in a porn video! I think it's a secret desire of all guys to star in porn, maybe thats why a lot of guys want to videotape their sexual encounters, to see how they look on film. hehe. So after an hour or so, I eventually agreed. Yeah it felt good, everything was going smoothly, like a well rehearsed scene in a porn vid, until the guy tried to lick my neck. yeeeuck!....or maybe not. That shook me up a bit. I just moved away, maybe he just got caught up in the moment, that he wanted to lick his girl's body someplace, made a minor miscalculation of where to lick because the lights were dim--- I tried to justify what he did. He didn't try to do it again at least for awhile, so the show moved on. then suddenly, out of the blue--- the F#CKER tried to KISS ME! no mistakes there! He was definitely aiming for my mouth! EEEEWWW!!!! MOTHERF#CKING GRRROSSSSS!!!! GEEEZ!!!! THat got me out of my intoxication like being hit hard in the head! I got out of the bed, quickly got dressed, and ran out. I was f*cking duped! He must be some fag who connived a female friend to trap some guy---- ok, maybe I'm jumping to conclusions. At least from that experience, I became 100% sure that I really can't do the deed with another guy--- even when I'm under the influence of alcohol. hehe.

Come to think of it, many of my sexual encounters were done while I'm under the influence. Be it one night stands with ladies I've met at bars, fooling around with past girlfriends...Sometimes I wonder If I need it in order to er--- perform well. My recent sex life is usually boring---It seemed so generic, so bland. Honestly, I seem to have more satisfaction when I go at it alone. Every real life encounter seems the same, while in my imagination, every encounter is varied LOL. I guess because my sexual life in my younger years have been more colorful and different--- as you can see with the two encounters I've mentioned. hehe. Maybe that's why my recent encounters seem to have no spice at all...

Okay---- I better stop posting entries like this. That's 2 posts about my sex life already. I don't want this to turn into a sex blog...at least I don't want it to be known for that. Ah, thank God for anonimity :) hehe.


I'd better start thinking of wholesome life experiences to post...