Relieved

Here's the thing. Three years ago, after I resigned from work, i was sort of a drifter. My life had no direction, I just went with the flow. I did a lot of stupid things. I was so damn careless, and I didn't give a shit about the consequences of my actions. When I finally came to my senses, I became paranoid. i realized how stupid i was. I started thinking about repercussions... and I wondered if I could still undo those certain things, or maybe it was already too late to change things. That's almost three years of paranoia. These symptoms that I've been having for the past few months only aggravated that paranoia. Fact is, I'm having problems with my health, and this could be the result of the stupid things I have done in the past. All these symptoms seem to point to something benign, but i can't help but think of other possibilities. I can't help but think about the worst case scenario. A few hours ago, I finally took the plunge. I didn't know how I would react when I finally see the results, but i just took that leap of faith and hoped for the best.

Thank God.

Only safe sex from now on, I swear.