Voyeur View

I've just spent the last 3 hours of my study time doing something else instead of studying. It has become a habit that I click the "next blog" button whenever I view my blog--- I just seemed to have this undying urge to keep on clicking and clicking on that button today. The blogs I've read earlier seemed to be extra interesting. I've become fascinated with the lives and thoughts of other people, it's like seeing things through the eyes of these strangers. It's amazing how different each person thinks and behaves. I'm like a voyeur--- in a decent sort of way. It's like watching other people's lives from a hidden vantage point. There's this odd fascination, not unlike watching a fish in a fishbowl all day, even though nothing happens... you just can't seem to take your eyes off it, wondering what it may do, wondering how life is from another creature's point of view. Reading other people's blogs has become a guilty pleasure for me. I'm sure I'm not alone, judging from the many comments on the different blogs that I've seen.

Many times before, I used to take this "jeepney ride to nowhere" when I have nothing to do, or when I'm stressed out or really pissed off. What I'm doing now seems a bit similar. The whole activity strangely soothes my nerves, it relaxes me. I often just sit and watch my surroundings--- what people are doing on the streets, how my fellow passengers behave, how they look, how they inteact with one another, what they must be thinking or feeling. I'm not a snoop--- I'm not waiting for interesting things to happen just so I can tell them to others. I just like watching people, I'm awed with their peculiarities, their uniqueness from each other. We truly are one of God's most complex and amazing creations.

Because of this fascination, I used to consider being a psychologist... "shrinkologist" to some people. But I've discovered I don't have much patience with most psychiatric patients, those who are not in their proper state of mind. hehe. I bet if there was a way to watch myself from a third person's perspective, I would probably find my behavior amusing, especially with my jumbled thoughts and erratic behavior lately...


gah!!! got to turn this computer off now and do some studying.