Sunday, September 18, 2011

Revision

So maybe i was simply caught up in all that anger when my wrote my previous entry. After almost a month my mood has changed a bit... and i'm capable of thinking clearly one again. But time hasn't changed my disdain of humanity in general. I know there are a lot of good people out there, people who are still capable of selflessness and genuine concern... but they are overwhelmed by the overwhelming majority. I doubt if i could ever regain my faith in humanity ever again. 

i hate driving to work. it burns me up everyday. It takes so much longer to get to work as it should, thanks to traffic mismanagement. thanks to those stupid individuals who make up all those stupid traffic rules, and as ordinary citizens, we have no choice but to obey. and i also have to thank all those stupid drivers who keep clogging our streets with their incompetency. i mean, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to understand simple traffic rules. all it takes is common sense, something that i used to think we were all born with, but i was wrong apparently. take one of my pet peeves: vehicles that block intersections. if they can very well see that there's a traffic jam up ahead and they can't really move that much forward, why the fuck would they continue moving their vehicles and then subsequently blocking the intersection? because they just want everyone else to join them in their misery, is that it? were they secretly hoping that all the vehicles in front of them would miraculously all move forward and give way for them? god, i don't know if these people are incredibly stubborn, selfish, or simply incredibly stupid. i wouldn't mind shooting them in their fucking heads if only someone made it legal to do so. i wouldn't even feel guilty afterward. I'd be ridding this world of stupid people who only serve to bring others down along with them. getting rid of them would be for the greater good, no doubt about it.

And then the grave robbers were at it again. before they just slowly ripped off the metal trimmings outside the mausoleum...i dunno, they would probably melt them and then sell them afterward. then they stole the lights outside. We didn't check on the mausoleum for a month, then when we came for a visit three weeks ago the whole metal gate was missing. Jesus, those bastards managed to take the whole gate. It amazes me how they could have taken that whole gate, carried it out to the streets and not one person saw them carrying it. The street outside is very busy even in the wee hours of the morning, it's impossible that no one noticed them carrying such a big gate. It's either no one cared, or the people in the surrounding area were in cahoots with them. And with the gate gone, the entire contents of the mausoleum was one big free for all. All decorations were gone, as well as the lights and fans. Anything that they could take, they took it. I was surprised they even left the kitchen sink and the toilet bowl. Maybe they just left them for next time, because apparently for the bastards and assholes in the surrounding neighborhood, they have found their new source of income. with shit like that happening, how could i ever learn to trust people again? I keep thinking of just staying there for one night and wait for anyone of them to show up. Then i would shoot them pointblank. I can never go on a random shooting spree without feeling guilty afterwards, but with those people, i could kill them with no apprehensions at all. or maybe put them to sleep with an intravenous medication first, bring them someplace and then skin them alive, very slowly. or maybe burn them alive so that i won't make that much of a mess. their screams would bring such pleasure to me, that's one thing that is certain. These people behaved like animals, and they deserve to be treated like animals. By doing such deeds, they have revoked their right to be treated as humans. honestly, even if they were already dying of hunger, even if they can find no other source of income, would that justify disrespecting other people's graves? how can they eat the food at their tables knowing how they were able to get  food that they were eating? to do so would be to give in to your animal side, to your carnal cravings. and if they choose to live like animals, then they deserve to die like animals as well. they deserve to be slaughtered like cows and pigs in the slaughterhouse. No mercy to those who continue to live by simple necessity. 

So yeah, i wouldn't just kill anyone for no reason at all. i was caught up in rage when i said that, that wasn't me talking at all. but for all the many people who have waived their right to humanity by virtue of stupidity and giving in to their animal cravings? i would gladly kill all of them one by one, if only someone would give me the power and right to do so.